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Annie lennox is cool brings back memories her and sinead o connor remind me of when i was a wee one. My life has been set at a stand still for awhile now focused on other peoples feelings and neglecting my own but now that i know i have done everything that is possible for her to like me doesnt seem like shes going to open up to me maybe she is incapable of doing so i dunno i tend to ask myself over and over is she worth it? do i even like this girl or have i masked my true feelings i think i felt better lonely i dont know how i got attached to people in the first place never really liked them maybe people do hold you back. 

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SEED feast was yesterday pleasant time. Today Heba's Party jolly good.

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I miss the winter in the winter i am comforted and i dont feel as alone. I told d that i could talk to her anymore it was just becoming to hard and im not about to get into a situation like with a or even s i dunno things suck ass to put it bluntly failed all my courses let some people down seems like its screw up time for me and now im wallowing in my own self pity like a two year old what next?

I really wish I could take a trip. I need to run away for awhile just to get away from everything. I still remember going to spain and france, I honestly think those two weeks were the best two weeks of my life and probably for the rest of my life so many memories. It just seems the older I get the more burden is rested upon me ,the more  it seems like life is trying to tell me there is nothing out there for me and that success and contention is just a feeble dream, that to even contemplate such things would be laughable.Recently it was prom for alot of people I dunno just saddens me to see how much of a screw up I become how my worst fears of people passing me have come true i guess ever since I was 12 I realised my fate I guess all you can say is that its pathetic and sad to see what I have become. I really wish I had "friends" around but I know people have lives of there own I dont blame them  fuck I dunno its late I better go.